It’s all over the place

The first time I spent winter here I liked it but through the years im starting to dislike it; your always cold, you have to be rapped in thousands of sheets of clothing making you feel like a walking marshmallow, its hard to move but recently another reason was added to my list once the heater in the house turns on – which is every winter –

Every morning my mom wakes up and goes to her bathroom (same routing each and every morning), meanwhile I get up and start getting for school or work. I try to do everything in my room quickly because while my mom is in the restroom smoking and the heater is on the smell of cigarettes goes all around the house.. I open my room door so it wont stay in my room and have everything smell like I was smoking as well after getting out of my room i spray a bunch of perfume on me so i wont stink. the house smells like cigarettes for about 5-10 minutes long until after the smell starts going away. I always tell my mom to smoke outside becuase of that she listens at times when she’s not feeling lazy to do it.

A Mystery for years has been Solved

Since the day I could think for myself and make my own decision (around 18 years old) I had so many questions on smoking: Why my mom smoked?, What made her take that decision?, Why hasn’t my dad helped her to quit?, or why she does it?. Through out my live I would wonder to my self what happened that made her place that cigarette in her mouth and I skimmed on what we did trough out the days that went wrong to see if there was naything wrong.

These past days Iv’e been noticin my mother smoking more than usual and i think its my brothers an my fault. My mom and I have been really close, she’s my best friend but once you start getting older, things change. That’s what happend in this situation. She left to Venezuela and I started dating, she would leave and come back but would stay over at Venezuela more than staying here in Utah. When my mom came back to stay I was in a relationship (still am) and she saw that I’m with that one person for a long time through out the day and week. My solution is I dont think she’s ready to let go of me yet, it stresses her out and makes her sad. I try to be with her and invite her places  as often as posibble or find her a partner.

A Stinky Situation

No matter how much perfume you use, it doesn’t go away.

I was going out with my boyfriend for dinner. I was dressed with a black dress, my hair in curls, and my black heels. I was feeling confident that he was going to tell me that I look pretty. At least that’s what I wanted him to  say. I was waiting impatiently for him to pick me up at my place. When he showed up he rang my doorbell and I opened the front door. No words were said yet just a hug, when he stopped hugging me he told me “you smell like cigarettes.” I felt like I had to go shower in perfume but I already knew that putting a bunch of perfume on doesn’t help. Its like when you go to someones house for like 5 minutes and their cooking, when you leave that smell just sticks to your cloth and specially your hair – long hair the most – I couldn’t do much about the smell it was already stuck on me, but with this experience I actually learned that next time either tell my mom to go outside and smoke or ill close my self in my room to get ready and not get out till I have to leave.

The Smokers Spot

Every day I have to be at work by 9am. I walked up the same stairs, and pass by the same corner – I hate that corner.

At my job, our parking lot has four levels. I usually have to park at the very last level becuase by the time I come in the first three levels are full. When I go up the stairs to go thru the main doors I have to pass by a corner in the second level of the parking which is next to the stairs. every morning I pass by that corner and there’s always some one smoking. The smoke doesnt go away because the second level is enclosed with the upper and the middle level so the smoke stays there for a while  so when I get there that smoke is concentrated there and when I breathe I suck in all the smoke (it smells awful) I usually try covering my nose so it wont give me allergies or be bad for my health (second hand smoke) when I pass by there or i catch a deep breath by the stairs and walk fast while holding my breathe.

I dont understand why instead of having the spot of the smoker be in that certain level why dont they make it the upper level, where it is an open area to smoke becuase above that level theres nothing else but the sky.